my bro's been gone for a week and still hasn't called back. heard that he's very busy in Taiwan. probably busy "chauffeuring" people around. haha. my glasses snapped! actually, it didn't even snap, it just sort of.. came off. see, i woke up sat morn and like any other seriously short-sighted people, the first thing i did was to put on my glasses, which lie beside me every night. so as usual, i opened the two long thingys that go behind your ears and the left one just came off in my hands. yeaaa...... so i'm making do with contacts.. which makes things seem magnified.. well, hopefully i get to make a brand new pair of glasses! :) :)
sometimes, my memory is so bad that it scares me. on tuesday, i went home aft English oral and put my IC on my mum's dressing table. my dad came over, took a look at it and put it in the drawer. that night, i forgot all about it and worried the whole of wednesday that i had lost it. hm. i'd like to think that i forgot because i was devoting my attention to something else at that time. harr. it was only during remedial the next day that a scene of my father looking at my IC flashed in my mind. i don't even remember putting the card into my shirt pocket after oral. over the years, i realise that the things i remember are some very.. random and weird things. i don't remember much about being a toddler. sometimes, it almost seems as if i wasn't living during my childhood days. scary. yet, i remember some very random things very vividly.
oh btw, i really really thank God for my cheena results. i'd never done that well for cheena in sec4 before! actually it's just a 3 la.. but i used to get 5 or 6 or even 7(in sec3) ok. and i got a 2 for my cls test! i pray, i pray that my other subjects would improve like how my cheena did!
[*taMmy*]

for some reason, i feel weird these days.
hopefully some shopping on thurs snaps me out of this... this mood.
yup! going to s-h-o-p on thursday for friday's dining etiquette course! a bit dumb right, to buy clothes for a 3hr or so course. but i'm just buying a skirt and footwear. i must buy a cheap skirt, otherwise i would only wear it once, then chuck it at the back of my cupboard and forget all about it. that happens to almost every pair of skirt that i have. haha. cos those skirts are the kinds that are pretty but very formal. the kinds you wear to weddings. well that proves i don't own many skirts, nor do i wear them often. actually, i think that's because i havent found a perfect skirt.
i hate this kind of.. weird feeling. seems like i cant desribe it with any other words other than: weird. and let me tell you it's definitely not a good feeling. i feel more than just weird. i feel infuriated, i feel happy, i feel gloomy, i feel happy. Oh PLEASE tell me it's just that.
why why why is it so difficult to ignore these negative feelings??! i want to feel HAPPY again. such a simple, overly-used word. but it holds a lot of meaning, you know that?
[*taMmy*]